Walker

You were the one who gave me my first emotional blow

I seemed to be okay, but I was not

You said it was the world

Cant say if you were wrong

I'm sure you know by now

What is it like to go around

Then you were the one who told me not to be afraid

Cause one day we'll get along in heaven:

Just find me.

And now it's my time to show you that I can live

With a little bit of hope

The hope that will put us together home

I'm writing you to say you did everything right

Cause you are now the walker of the night

You were the one who left me with a letter

A letter I can't find

Can anyone tell me which his last written was?

I still remember the conversation we had about

If we should or not to say goodbye

Now I can't say it without feeling the sarrow

That led you to madness

Leaving me heartless.

And now it's my time to show you that I can live

with a little bit of hope

The hope that will put us together home

I'm writing you to say you did everything right

Cause you are now the walker of the night

Throwing my own notes I'll just take your steps

To arrive there soon

I wanna be with you

I watch your picture on my shelf

and wonder if you're even there

or instead I'm always talking to nothing.

Negative

I’m not posting in my blog, and someday I’ll have to put everything I’ve written on paper in the computer and post it, and to be honest I’m scared that when that day comes I won’t be able to find where this papers are.  I always think I do not have enough time to turn on the computer, so I’m not even downloading the notes from my teachers.

I’ve got the feeling that I’m doing things all day and that I never stop doing something, but when I think about how many productive things I’ve done, I got nothing. A teacher from the last year told me that this happens to me because I am so negative with myself that when I have to do something I start it, I think “I won’t do it well” and then leave it unfinished. She said that I don’t realize how much potential I have and that I could be brilliant if I wanted to. But then again, I’ve a mind block that keeps me away from the positive things.

To sum up, I hope someday I find this and post it… And CACTUS, REMEMBER, THE SONG IS “UNDERTOW” (include this last sentence, why not, this is a free post).

Guernica

This picture represents the pain produce by a war. I studied this one the last year and I had to make a formal commentary about it, but this time I prefer to say what I feel when I see it.

It is overwhelming. When I look at the picture I don’t know where I should be looking.  It transmits me a strong sorrow when I see the mother holding her baby’s body, the angry look of the horses; and I can even imagine myself in that room, breathing the smoke, staining my barefoot with the ash on the floor.

The colors used in its elaboration let me see in detail how strong could be the feelings of the painter when he made it, and how sad he was about this topic. It is also reflected in the way he mix the image of the characters what, talking in a non-professional way, express how confusing should be for the living beings  what was happening there. 

Boring People

There are people who ask me why do I wear black clothes instead of a colorful outfit, other people ask me why do I like zombie films because it is weird. “Why don’t you go out with friends instead of watching series?” “Why don’t you ever put on a dress?” “Okay, you did buy a dress, does it really have to be black? AGAIN? ” “Are you emo or something? You’re always so serious” (it seems that I’m a “Sirius” person *badum tss*).

Well, maybe some of you are reading me and you are thinking that there are enough people complaining about this type of people, the ones that don’t seem to be able to enjoy an action film and are always thinking about beautiful things and denying themselves the pleasure of, for example, dressing like they want because they’re too concentrated in being who other people want them to be.

AND NOW THAT I’VE GROUSE ENOUGH TODAY (THIS WEEK IS BEING ENDLESS) I’m going to link this post with a random song that has nothing to do with this, but I like it and WHY NOT.

Rock and Classical Music

There are a lot of differences between this two music genders.  It is difficult to structure my ideas, but I’ll try to explain my personal viewpoint. Bear in mind that we are talking about music, both rock and classic are a way to express our feelings and to share them with the world, so we have to know that every song is a little piece of the composer’s heart. Every note is where it is for a reason (it is called harmony) and every accord is correctly connected with the following one in order to show us an idea, an image or a feeling.

Personally, I prefer rock music. Rock artists try to communicate with the public in a different way than the classical musicians. For example, in a rock concert you stand up in the crowd and you dance, shout, sing, clap your hands, ask for more songs… However, in a classical concert you can barely applaud.  Also, the artist’s behave is different, even what they have to wear. You’re not going to see a guitarist wearing a suit, an orchestra director wearing a red t-shirt, a singer  asking for silence or a cellist cheering up the public.

I like both rock and classical music, but in my opinion classical music is proposed in a little nearby way while rock music is felt closer and it would be different if classical music were submitted in an informal way. 

Angels

I don’t want to be like those girls obsessed with the idea of death, drown in sickness and always depressed because they think their lives are awful. I don’t want to be a walker black soul, always living in the shadows and unable to feel, even when it’s the easy way. Sometimes I we are all just like an angel with broken wings, full of light but unknowing what we are capable to do.

I miss the misery

There are so many ways of missing someone, and it is different for each person. For example, it is not the same missing a relative and missing a friend. Of course, it’s neither the same to miss a couple.  Sometimes we don’t actually miss the person, we miss the situation or the comfort someone make us feel. 

When you think about people from your past, it is normal to feel nostalgia, and we should not be embarrassed because of that. However, when it is about relationships it’s a weird feeling, like a hole in our stomachs or a sharp knife in our throats.

Important people

Let's talk about friendships. It is something that we all need, at least one friend, because as a videoclip I like says, "one friend can save a life".

To have a friend is sometimes like having a boyfriend or a girlfriend; but sadly most of people forget to endeavour or they just avoid it. When you've got a girl/boyfriend, you always try hard to make that person happy. Why don't we do the same with friends?

Furthermore, I don't know why when someone is lonely people tend to think tat it is for some reason and they isolate this person instead of trying to help so he or her can be happy There are a lot of cases of people who kill themselves because they feel lonely, but no one seems to care about them until they're dead. Maybe this sounds hard, but admit it, because it's true. 

Why is it important to have a friend? Why can it change someone's life? A friend (a true one) is always there. When you have a family problem, when you have a heartbreak, when you're stressed  because of the studies, when you need to talk to someone, when you want to be lied on the floor in silence but in company, and even if you want to travel to New York to eat a hot dog at a park or you have to dig a hole to bury a body, a true friend will be there with you to do all that.

But remember, this unconditional trust and support should be reciprocal, because as I've said, "one friend can save a life".